Maybe there is people will be asking,
"aren't you said you damn need sleep? why would you have time for blog?"
I just need to, I need to confess and make my brain easier.
I have been an emotional person for all the time,
All day, Whole day, Everyday.
Wasn't purposely being like that.
just that, things happened couldn't make me happy or cheer.
Well, I have been telling people that think in the positive ways,
but deep down in me,
I know I can'r either.
when things happened, I automatically thought of bad things first.
as well as a question,
when somebody says that, "I need to tell you something."
First instinct is that, what is the bad news the person gonna bring me.
But I know, it wasn't only me.
I had tried to calm myself, in all way.
sleeps, eats, talks, walks, and anything that i think i could make myself better.
but,
no.
I'm having serious headache, and feeling head spinning, but I just can't sleep.
I did eat, but doesn't eat much, yet ended up with gastritis, hungriness, without appetite.
I don't wanna talk.
I'm so tired of doing anything.
But my brain spins so fast, everything ran through it,
but i don't know what are they.
I wish i can tell someone, but I don't know how to open it up.
and I left it there.
or maybe in my snapchat, sometimes.
I almost went broke down.
Because the person who said who will together fight with me
saying wanna quit.
I used more than a night to calm myself.
feeling really stressed out.
Then things all come together,
its actually me, made things happened.
yes.
It's me who didn't forecast the things, which I should have did.
It's me who delayed all the things, doing other things.
Like now, I'm spending time for this post,
instead of having my database done.
I know, it's all me, made the things happened.
I just can't help.
Sometimes I need to talk to someone,
Sometimes I need to be with someone without talking,
Sometimes I need to be alone,
Sometimes, I just need the warm tight hug.
But, incredibly, I found no one to be the someone,
I almost couldn't breath, but they doesn't understand.
they thought I'm just wanna be spoiled,
they didn't know I'm breaking down, getting out of control.
I am not that kind of person great or good in social.
often doing awkward with peoples.
forgive me, if I'm doing annoying.
If I'm doing irritating,
or even I being ignorant.
Please forgive me.
I am just so not good into these.
And I'm standing up right now,
whoever read this.
I'm sorry if my words disturbed you.
and thank you for reading.
Then I will be standing up and doing positive again.
I always wanna be a person with positive attitude.
I always encourage people with positive thoughts
Now, please, I wanna be positive again.
Then I will be good and strong.
and capable to things and hectic life.
xoxo.
"aren't you said you damn need sleep? why would you have time for blog?"
I just need to, I need to confess and make my brain easier.
I have been an emotional person for all the time,
All day, Whole day, Everyday.
Wasn't purposely being like that.
just that, things happened couldn't make me happy or cheer.
Well, I have been telling people that think in the positive ways,
but deep down in me,
I know I can'r either.
when things happened, I automatically thought of bad things first.
as well as a question,
when somebody says that, "I need to tell you something."
First instinct is that, what is the bad news the person gonna bring me.
But I know, it wasn't only me.
I had tried to calm myself, in all way.
sleeps, eats, talks, walks, and anything that i think i could make myself better.
but,
no.
I'm having serious headache, and feeling head spinning, but I just can't sleep.
I did eat, but doesn't eat much, yet ended up with gastritis, hungriness, without appetite.
I don't wanna talk.
I'm so tired of doing anything.
But my brain spins so fast, everything ran through it,
but i don't know what are they.
I wish i can tell someone, but I don't know how to open it up.
and I left it there.
or maybe in my snapchat, sometimes.
I almost went broke down.
Because the person who said who will together fight with me
saying wanna quit.
I used more than a night to calm myself.
feeling really stressed out.
Then things all come together,
its actually me, made things happened.
yes.
It's me who didn't forecast the things, which I should have did.
It's me who delayed all the things, doing other things.
Like now, I'm spending time for this post,
instead of having my database done.
I know, it's all me, made the things happened.
I just can't help.
Sometimes I need to talk to someone,
Sometimes I need to be with someone without talking,
Sometimes I need to be alone,
Sometimes, I just need the warm tight hug.
But, incredibly, I found no one to be the someone,
I almost couldn't breath, but they doesn't understand.
they thought I'm just wanna be spoiled,
they didn't know I'm breaking down, getting out of control.
I am not that kind of person great or good in social.
often doing awkward with peoples.
forgive me, if I'm doing annoying.
If I'm doing irritating,
or even I being ignorant.
Please forgive me.
I am just so not good into these.
And I'm standing up right now,
whoever read this.
I'm sorry if my words disturbed you.
and thank you for reading.
Then I will be standing up and doing positive again.
I always wanna be a person with positive attitude.
I always encourage people with positive thoughts
Now, please, I wanna be positive again.
Then I will be good and strong.
and capable to things and hectic life.
xoxo.
